blue skies turned grey

2009-06-21T15:30:00.001+08:00

look into

2009-06-20T02:45:00.000+08:00

"Everybody has a secret world inside of them. All of the people of the world, I mean everybody. No matter how dull and boring they are on the outside, inside them they've all got unimaginable, magnificent, wonderful, stupid, amazing worlds. Not just one world. Hundreds of them. Thousands maybe." -- Neil Gaiman

revolutionary road

2009-04-18T02:16:00.001+08:00

"... the problem with the society isn't necessarily that it's hypocritical or conformist or mediocre, but that it produces people with such a horrible gap between aspiration and capacity - it gives them the leisure and intelligence to want a fuller life while robbing them of the backbone to get it."

i loathe myself.

2009-03-22T23:31:00.002+08:00

i give, i persevere and i maintain

i see nothing in the coming except for one

i felt, i teared, i cried

i dont carry the world upon my shoulders

yet it doesnt make it any better

i've asked.

the universe answered.

but not some.

one thing i learnt today was that

2009-03-03T00:03:00.003+08:00

your darkest hour will eventually past

Love according to children.

2009-02-20T21:20:00.001+08:00

“Love is when you tell a guy you like his shirt, then he wears it everyday.” - Noelle, age 7

“When my grandmother got arthritis, she couldn’t bend over and paint her toenails anymore. So my grandfather does it for her all the time, even when his hands got arthritis too. That’s love.” - Rebecca, age 8

“When you love somebody, your eyelashes go up and down and little stars come out of you.” - Karen, age 7

shorts variation

2009-02-18T21:50:00.015+08:00

The foolproof way to dress up shorts, is to pair it with looser tops, erm, just look at the picture and you'll understand. Lol.

This has been my all time fav picture. I love that its stripes and florals, yet still matches well. Anyway, you can invest in stripe tops, cos they never go out of time.

Without the jacket of course.

Tops like this make your outfit dressed up immediately. It can be your equivalent of t-shirt. The material is light so it's cooling for you even when you walk miles.

I can't find the exact picture, but just imagine that the bottom is in cotton and the top in cotton/chiffon material.

You can wear basics but still look dressed up, with accessories!

Denim shorts and tee combination might work better than cotton shorts and tee.

If you don't already have one, you might want to get shorts in this shade of colour. It goes with everything.

The tee I'm talking about. It's casual cool. But please don't get one that is like too tight and too fitting. It has to be loose.

Best when it looks worn in.

That's about it. (:

for claire

2009-02-13T00:54:00.001+08:00

self-actualization

2009-02-08T04:55:00.002+08:00

i don't know what makes me really, really happy. yet.
i have lots of interests, but i don't know what am i most passionate about. yet.
i don't know when i feel most alive. yet.

what would i do if i weren't afraid?

change.
change is what i would do.
change takes courage.
change takes tenacity.
change isn't insurmountable.

the reality of life

2009-01-27T00:51:00.001+08:00

Meditate, dance, exercise, eat well, laugh, play, create, journal, read, smile, love, breathe deeply, pet your dog, think positive thoughts, imagine your ideal future with such intensity that you can FEEL it, do whatever you need to do to FILL UP. No need to sob. Just fill up. :)

-esther and jerry hicks

this will never get old

2008-12-21T02:50:00.002+08:00

I was a quick wet boy
Diving too deep for coins
All of your straight blind eyes
Wide on my plastic toys
And when the cops closed the fair
I cut my long baby hair
Stole me a dog-eared map
And called for you everywhere

Have I found you?
Flightless bird, jealous, weeping
Or lost you?
American mouth
Big bill looming

Now I’m a fat house cat
Cursing my sore blunt tongue
Watching the warm poison rats
Curl through the wide/white fence cracks
Kissing on magazine photos
Those fishing lures thrown in the cold and clean
Blood of Christ mountain stream

Have I found you?
Flightless bird, brown hair bleeding
Or lost you?
American mouth
Big bill, stuck going down

Iron & Wine

2008-12-06T23:39:00.001+08:00

how people treat you is their karma;
how you react is yours.
-wayne dyer

the lights never shine quite as bright anymore

2008-10-07T02:38:00.004+08:00

if letting in is the only way out
i might just not make it

the walls are there
do i dismantle it
or will someone spare the extra effort?

norah jones once again

2008-10-07T02:29:00.000+08:00

Your eyes seek conclusion in all this confusion of mine
Though you and I both know it's only the warm glow of wine
That's got you to feeling this way, but I don't care,
I want you to stay
Just to hold me and tell me you'll be here to love me today

Children are dancin', the gamblers are chancin' their all
The window's accusing the door of abusing the wall
But who cares what the night watchmen say
The stage has been set for the play
So just hold me and tell me you'll be here to love me today

The moon's come and gone but a few stars hang on to the sky
The wind's runnin' free but it ain't up to me to ask why
But the poets are demanding their pay
And they've left me with nothin' to say
'cept hold me and tell me you'll be here to love me today
Just hold me and tell me that you'll be here to love me today
Just hold me and tell me that you'll be here to love me today

'But I like being submerged in your contradictions dear'

2008-09-01T23:44:00.002+08:00

Well it kind of hurts when the kind of words you write
Kind of turn themselves into knives
And don't mind my nerve you could call it fiction
But I like being submerged in your contradictions dear
'Cause here we are, here we are

Although you were biased I love your advice
Your comebacks they're quick
And probably have to do with your insecurities
There's no shame in being crazy,
Depending on how you take these
Words I'm paraphrasing this relationship we're staging

And what a beautiful mess this is
It's like picking up trash in dresses

Well it kind of hurts when the kind of words you say
Kind of turn themselves into blades
And kind and courteous is a life I've heard
But it's nice to say that we played in the dirt oh dear
Cause here we are, here we are ..
We're still here
What a beautiful mess this is
It's like taking a guess when the only answer is yes

Through timeless words, and priceless pictures
We'll fly like birds, out of this earth
And times they turn, and hearts disfigure
But that's no concern when we're wounded together
And we tore our dresses, and stained our shirts
But it's nice today, oh the wait was so worth it

( a beautiful mess )

eat your projections

2008-08-30T01:20:00.004+08:00

In tragically too often criticizing moments, its always when self-expectations are not met. It has nothing to do with others and everything to do with oneself. Don't put projections on other people. Eat 'em.

familiarity breeds contempt

2008-08-16T00:58:00.002+08:00

which is why distance is so beautiful

when the things that make you happy no longer makes you happy

2008-07-08T00:32:00.004+08:00

下一个天亮

2008-06-21T17:25:00.003+08:00

用起伏的背影挡住哭泣的心
有些故事不必说给每个人听
许多眼睛看的太浅太近
错过我没被看見那个自己

用简单的言语解开超载的心
有些情绪是该说给懂的人听
你的热泪比我激动怜惜
我发誓要更努力更有勇气

等下一个天亮
去上次牵手赏花那里散步好吗
有些积雪会自己融化
你的肩膀是我豁达的天堂

等下一个天亮
把偷拍我看海的照片送我好吗
我喜欢我飞舞的头发
和飘着雨还是眺望的眼光

时间可以磨去我的棱角
有些坚持却永遠磨不掉
请容许我小小的骄傲
因为有你这样的依靠

as i sit and watch

2008-06-19T02:05:00.003+08:00

one is easy to forgo.
but two begins the compounding.

yes. a mere addition inflicts what was thought to be forsaken.

luckily i found my solace.
well, sorta.

what happens when the mind and heart contends?

the battle is still raging
the pendulum swings
may the better side win

don't wonder why people go crazy. wonder why they don't

2008-05-31T19:22:00.003+08:00

I'm stuck in a place you can hardly understand.
But I don't blame you.
Well I do, actually. Maybe just a little.

Giving up and missing out.
I don't know.. Superficial things?
I should be able to go way beyond that.
I might have thought too highly of myself.

I'm not an idiot.
I know what you meant between the lines.
It's weird how this works.
Really.
But I guess that's how it goes.
Always have. Always will.

Maybe true empathy doesn't exist at all.

2008-05-14T23:09:00.001+08:00

.. the human experience is a sad, funny, beautiful thing, full of imperfection and irony

for they could not

2008-05-03T00:00:00.002+08:00

they did not listen
they're not listening still
perhaps they never will

lilacs and hydrangeas

2008-05-02T23:56:00.002+08:00

it's spring.
in some other beautiful parts of the world.
none of mine to see.

or maybe i'm just blinded.

tell me your secrets*

2008-03-22T04:42:00.003+08:00

maybe i should rant and rave
maybe i should keep to myself
how i wish i could surrender this front
how i wish it were easy for me like it was for everyone else
im always hanging
its always haunting
where's the comfort in such pain?
will you be my shoulder?

*and i'll tell you mine

will you?

2008-03-15T04:45:00.002+08:00

stay with me

sit through the awkward silences

and watch the world go by

believer

2008-03-15T04:31:00.000+08:00

Didn't think you would trust me.
Thought you would see what I see.
This days have been good for me too,
But I can't stay.
You know why.
Didn't want this to end like this.
Thought I might could convert.
These nights have been sad for me too,
But I don't pray.
You know why.

You are a believer,
I am not.

Didn't think I could ever love,
So I had to destroy it all.
But you will do find someone new,
When I am gone.
You know why.

You are a believer,
I am not.

stay, would you

2008-03-04T20:55:00.001+08:00

If I build a wall
A hundred feet tall
Would that keep you in?
If I shackled your feet
So you couldn’t leave
Would you try and run?

If I promise not to fight
At least not tonight
Would you stay the night?
If I wore that little dress
That you like the best
Would you pass my test?

Would you stay?
Would you stay with me?
Would you stay?
Would you stay with me?

If I poured another drink
What would you think
About staying in?
If I was sincere
And whispered my fears
Would you still be here?

Would you stay?
Would you stay with me?
Would you stay?
Would you stay with me?
With me

my world is a better place with you in it

2008-03-04T19:03:00.006+08:00

the hardest part of kicking an addiction is wanting to kick it
i mean we get addicted for a reason, right?
it's the high we're chasing
the high that makes everything else fade away
still, they say, don't kick the habit till you hit rock bottom
but how do you know when you're there?
because no matter how badly a thing is hurting us
sometimes, letting it go hurts even worse

the hardest pill to swallow

2008-02-21T02:03:00.001+08:00

there is a hole in the sky.

what i wouldn't give

2008-01-14T01:19:00.000+08:00

im losing this fight
this might be the closest i can get..
where are the better days..
i'll be there as soon as i can

almost but never quite was

2007-12-01T22:54:00.000+08:00

im starting to think that this is something i'd never get out of

i wanted to type a lot
i had a lot going on in my mind
i nearly put them to words
but i lost them

i don't need people to know everything that i say, do or feel
but i'd have them understanding in at least a certain way
maybe its too much to ask

this headache is killing me

meet me there, when we're both fresh

2007-11-29T01:01:00.000+08:00

what if one day
everything comes crumbling down
does it mean all the memories get erased
and we get to start over again?

what am i to you?

2007-11-28T01:26:00.000+08:00

now if my sky should fall
would you even call?

i don't know which is better

2007-11-21T04:04:00.000+08:00

to be full of zest and affected too much
or to be aloof and take things lightly

i thought you'd be here by now

2007-11-20T02:37:00.000+08:00

i need to dwell in self-pity ever so often
just to lament on life
just because contentment is extravagant
just because happiness last only for a fleeting moment

when the stars refuse to shine

2007-11-18T03:05:00.000+08:00

sometimes, a thought lingers
there's no sense in telling
cos at the end
it's all the same

i don't wanna be
but change is arduous
it is
be it for altering assumptions or practices

i don't wish to skip all the goings
but that's what i always end up doing

i think i'm a cynic at heart
i think you don't know me
i think i won't let you know me

if im nowhere near, then where am i?

2007-11-04T01:24:00.000+08:00

Love the tiffany colored sky in this.

Love this and this as well.

somewhere between waking and sleeping

2007-10-26T04:47:00.000+08:00

an offbeat delivery
absolute infatuation

-

the traffic light is changing unusually fast
or maybe everything else seems quiet and slow

no, the traffic light does operate differently during midnights

-

why do i have a hunch about it?
still.

2007-10-19T23:51:00.000+08:00

when you were here before
couldn't look you in the eye

i want you to notice
when i'm not around

you're so fucking special
i wish i was special

whatever makes you happy
whatever you want

what the hell am i doing here
i don't belong here

i hope it will

2007-10-11T18:34:00.000+08:00

if you wander off too far, my love will get you home
if you follow the wrong star, my love will get you home.
if you ever find yourself, lost and all alone
get back on your feet and think of me, my love will get you home
boy, my love will get you home

if the bright lights blind your eyes, my love will get you home
if your troubles break your stride, my love will get you home
if you ever find yourself, lost and all alone
get back on your feet and think of me, my love will get you home
boy, my love will get you home

if you ever feel ashamed, my love will get you home
when there's only you to blame, my love will get you home
if you ever find yourself, lost and all alone
get back on your feet and think of me, my love will get you home
boy, my love will get you home

if you ever find yourself, lost and all alone
get back on your feet and think of me, my love will get you home
boy, my love will get you home
boy, my love will get you home

and so it is

2007-09-22T00:06:00.000+08:00

be by my side
quietly

'cos i don't think they'd understand

flocks

2007-09-15T19:55:00.000+08:00

The birds don't stay for long
Come and they go
One or two, three or five
They sing to some
They chirp to some

The end.

crazy elephant

2007-08-24T01:31:00.000+08:00

The fine line.

Nobody goes beyond it.

Maybe someone should.

Norah Jones is love.

don't bother

2007-08-24T00:56:00.000+08:00

Feels like it all over again.
With more vulnerability than ever.

I'm running dry.

Spelled out loud.

Lies and facade.

Find me in my perspective.

I have no clue.
I never do.

the piles keep piling up

2007-07-28T21:59:00.000+08:00

I am tired.

And I've nothing to share.

Because.

and you can't wait till the time comes

2007-06-24T20:13:00.000+08:00

In times where the coming's bleak, you'll feel especially psyched to know that what you've been trying hard to reach out to, is actually available there in a tangible form.

never-ending love affair

2007-06-23T17:08:00.000+08:00

I've been doing things that I've been wanting to do for a long time as of late. I'm learning how to cook, how to take better photos, figured out my other interests that really interests me (lol), how to make living better and more enjoyable, etc. I'm only beginning and it feels extremely satisfying. Life should be like this. (:

im one happy girl

2007-06-14T00:30:00.000+08:00

It makes me happy watching people describe their style.
Maybe it's because I cannot find the words to describe mine.

The dry period was here.
I guess it still is.

My inspiration wire is up. (:

Till then.

i love me some red shoes

2007-05-30T21:26:00.000+08:00

Colours and more colours. (:

i heart teen vogue

2007-05-25T21:46:00.000+08:00

I wish to say I'll be on the road and then escape to somewhere on my own. Freedom shouldn't be restricted like that. That, refers to much more than there is to it. Driving alone to afar will be an incredible way to unwind and to relish solitude, I guess. If it never comes, what will?

the road i found

2007-05-23T04:06:00.000+08:00

I like the way the road curves.

I like the way its cut off, just like that.

I like the way the lights look.

They're never ending.

So walk by it slow.

norah jones - until the end

2007-05-22T19:22:00.000+08:00

You've got a famous last name
But you're not to blame
Baby I see you for who you are

A one time apple queen
And a one time tramp
And an old time movie star

You're a shell picker
Of the pickiest kind
But you always find the ones to keep

And in or out of bed
You keep you're head wide open
'cause ya don't only dream when you're asleep

Like a child ... you remember
But I forget ... all my dreams

I used to think
That someday I'd relax a little
And be more like you

Then I realized
How silly that thought was
Needed to stand in my own shoes

And from over here
I can see you cry
Don't even try ... to pretend

'cause he's hurt you
So many times
Baby don't go back again

Like a child, you forget
But I remember everything ... and every sting

And through all the games
We'll both stay the same
As we've always been
Through the fat and thin
Until the end
Until the end

you and i play the game everyday

2007-05-12T03:02:00.000+08:00

In this world, we only show ourselves how we would like to be perceived.
Whether or not it accurately translates is a total different matter.

drowned in thoughts

2007-05-12T02:14:00.000+08:00

The lines are down
I need some time off

hanging in between

2007-05-10T22:53:00.000+08:00

I wish it was enough to break me down.

Supposed to be posted in the wee hours of 7/5/07.

the things you'll never know (and never bother knowing)

2007-05-06T00:03:00.000+08:00

The little things that make me happy
and the little things that make me sad.

The things that I long for
and the things that I dream of.

The things that I make believe
and the things of my pure hallucination.

The things that I hope for to happen again
and the things I wish to relive.

The things that I need more determination in
and the things I've given up on.

These things are ever-evolving.
Let's just hope it's for the better.

we never said.

2007-05-04T02:09:00.000+08:00

Something tells me...
My intuition is almost always spot on, I guess.
Haha, contradicting but anyways.

Here's 2 random pictures -

陳奕迅 - 富士山下

2007-04-21T03:23:00.001+08:00

陳奕迅 - 富士山下

2007-04-21T03:12:00.001+08:00

I tried and tried. But the lyrics just won't appear correctly up here.
They are the most beautiful yet.

Go here if you're interested at all.
There's a brief explanation but the translated lyrics in english doesn't even measure up. The music video doesn't quite justify the song either.

Lyrics are written in cantonese form but is still understandable if you read it the chinese way.

chic list

2007-04-16T22:55:00.000+08:00

Links and more links brought me to this. Which I thought was really interesting. So I'm gonna paste (either in exact words, or edited a little) from the site those that fit my definition of chic.

Here goes:

- Has good manners
- Is passionate about something — art, business, communication, philosophy etc
- Respects his- or herself & other people
- Doesn’t betray confidence, aka can keep things private
- Has excellent posture
- Practises “right speech” — meaning, does their best to only say things which are constructive, helpful &/or positive
- Looks after their nails
- Travels across the city for what she thinks are the best croissants, coffee or olives
- Is organised (stylishly, of course)
- Only spends her time with people who make her feel good
- Takes responsibility for himself
- Can cook, eats well & drinks a lot of water
- Takes care of their possessions (shines their shoes, cleans their bathroom, hand-washes any delicate clothing, etc.)
- Has distinct personal style, from clothing to hairstyle to handwriting
- Lives life to full capacity every day
- Has things that are what I call “signature” — personal elements that define them, which are distinctly individual. This can range from a way of walking to a tone of voice to a love for anything vintage
- Takes time to appreciate other people, objects and nature and can relate positive sentiments to the aforementioned
- Someone who is not afraid of showing the world who she really is

new found or reacquainted? perhaps both.

2007-04-15T00:00:00.000+08:00

So I ordered this from amazon yesterday. Yay-ness!

I may have found a love tantamount, if not bigger, to what I have for fashion. It makes me insanely ecstatic.

magnify the good of others

2007-04-14T00:56:00.000+08:00

I know of a friend who have a strong sense of her own style. She inspires me to be true to my style when in questions of doubt. It's not about totally ignoring words of other people, but essentially listening to your own inner voice. I love her for knowing and being who she is. It's being sure of yourself that makes you admirable and lovable.

You can always learn a thing or two from the people around you. (:

i need a metaphor

2007-04-13T02:25:00.000+08:00

When a storm is cooking within
what I desperately need
is to be alone

Other times
trash talking does the trick

-

2007-04-13T02:10:00.000+08:00

Dad: Drink this before you go out.
Me: What's that?
*Drinks anyway
Dad: Just leave it, I wash for you.

It's the little things like this,
that reminds me of how much I love him,
no matter what.

pffft

2007-04-11T01:51:00.000+08:00

I love writing chinese.
But the three words that I can never be happy with, is ironically my name.

ambiguity might be my only way out

2007-04-10T02:57:00.000+08:00

There's a reason
Why someone is, and someone's not
The reason's plain and clear to me
I'm trapped somewhere in between
Well, seeing is never believing

the way we live - by anthropologie

2007-03-27T20:22:00.000+08:00

if you know me now - speaking the unspoken

2007-03-27T18:14:00.000+08:00

I haven't the drive
I haven't the reason
I haven't the chance
If you know me now
Cease all your inner deliberation
I don't need no accusation
The picture is not yet clear
My head remains a blur
I'm not as assertive
I need your discernment
If you know me now

shopping cures depression

2007-03-23T19:32:00.000+08:00

I totally love this season's loose silhouette.
They're flattering and feminine.
Effortless, understated and amazingly chic.

My pretty dress! I love it so much I have to flaunt it. (x

amidst the noise i hear the crooning

2007-03-21T04:39:00.000+08:00

I took a clip of the sunrise that morning.
It's like a quiet documentary.
Capturing the sight, sound and moment.
Quietly appreciating what's given.
One of the many things I love to do.

isn't it

2007-03-18T21:39:00.000+08:00

one breath too late
and you're gone for good
it's funny how far it seems
but what could i do
and what would i change
when everything is strange
why should i learn how to fly
when i could just hide away
isn't it strange

such a beautiful morning

2007-03-18T15:11:00.000+08:00

spring is in the air

2007-03-13T20:47:00.000+08:00

Zara is love.

i need my muse

2007-03-11T19:48:00.000+08:00

I thought I wasn't one of those girls who were poor with directions - turns out I am. It's a whole different story when you're behind the wheel. Maybe I'm too used to accepting directions from the person sitting next to me. Haha. Anyways, driving with my mom has been the most enjoyable yet. Because she craps with her usual nonsense to me and makes me laugh while my dad was obviously uncomfortable sitting in the passenger seat. Lol. Whatever, will improve with time.

of flowers and love

2007-03-10T17:32:00.000+08:00

write me a different now

2007-02-25T00:03:00.000+08:00

Are we meant to stay within our circle or are we supposed to break out of it?

I wonder.

If contentedness brings happiness, and happiness is what everybody yearns for, so we should just stick around and be glad that we're somewhere and not nowhere?

Why doesn't stories go the way we want them to?

reggae

2007-02-22T02:42:00.000+08:00

I never knew reggae dance could be this nice. She's DAMN GOOD. I can't stop watching.

the avoider

2007-02-21T00:14:00.000+08:00

Individuals with this style want and need a lot of time alone; are often less talkative than the partner; are sensitive to any form of control; are often quite self-sufficient; give little information; withdraw when upset; have difficulty expressing their feelings; are often very involved in their work.

this and much more

2007-02-20T18:37:00.000+08:00

In love with (:

i'm not blind

2007-02-18T04:53:00.000+08:00

I have the tendency to bring myself unhappiness. No one told me to see/hear anything. Yet I did. Maybe this is one of my past that I should chuck away. Self-induced dejection is not becoming.

Words can only indicate so much, and are only for make believe. Actions are the sole real proof. I am someone who will give, only upon receiving. But once received, I will not hesitate to give by the multiplies. Typical scorpio character I guess.

in the end, it doesn't even matter

2007-02-17T23:12:00.000+08:00

Switched from tabulas. Still trying to get use to this. The main reason for switching is for the ease of uploading photos. Which means I'll most prolly put up pictures every now and then. And I do love the simplicity of the white layout, though it's one of the default templates.

I might still update tabulas. We'll see.

cny eve's dinner

2007-02-17T22:19:00.000+08:00

Reunion? Anyways, cam-whoring below.

The oufit, with hair undone.

Shirt-dress from hong kong, shoes from thailand. Love the pretty shoes! Oh, and my jimmy choo bag imitation. (:

On the way.

My mom and I.

between day and night

2007-02-14T16:32:00.000+08:00

I almost never get sick of the view.