for they could not

they did not listen
they're not listening still
perhaps they never will

lilacs and hydrangeas

it's spring.
in some other beautiful parts of the world.
none of mine to see.

or maybe i'm just blinded.

tell me your secrets*

maybe i should rant and rave
maybe i should keep to myself
how i wish i could surrender this front
how i wish it were easy for me like it was for everyone else
im always hanging
its always haunting
where's the comfort in such pain?
will you be my shoulder?




*and i'll tell you mine

will you?

stay with me

sit through the awkward silences

and watch the world go by

believer

Didn't think you would trust me.
Thought you would see what I see.
This days have been good for me too,
But I can't stay.
You know why.
Didn't want this to end like this.
Thought I might could convert.
These nights have been sad for me too,
But I don't pray.
You know why.

You are a believer,
I am not.

Didn't think I could ever love,
So I had to destroy it all.
But you will do find someone new,
When I am gone.
You know why.

You are a believer,
I am not.

stay, would you

If I build a wall
A hundred feet tall
Would that keep you in?
If I shackled your feet
So you couldn’t leave
Would you try and run?

If I promise not to fight
At least not tonight
Would you stay the night?
If I wore that little dress
That you like the best
Would you pass my test?

Would you stay?
Would you stay with me?
Would you stay?
Would you stay with me?

If I poured another drink
What would you think
About staying in?
If I was sincere
And whispered my fears
Would you still be here?

Would you stay?
Would you stay with me?
Would you stay?
Would you stay with me?
With me

my world is a better place with you in it

the hardest part of kicking an addiction is wanting to kick it
i mean we get addicted for a reason, right?
it's the high we're chasing
the high that makes everything else fade away
still, they say, don't kick the habit till you hit rock bottom
but how do you know when you're there?
because no matter how badly a thing is hurting us
sometimes, letting it go hurts even worse

the hardest pill to swallow

there is a hole in the sky.

what i wouldn't give

im losing this fight
this might be the closest i can get..
where are the better days..
i'll be there as soon as i can

almost but never quite was

im starting to think that this is something i'd never get out of

i wanted to type a lot
i had a lot going on in my mind
i nearly put them to words
but i lost them

i don't need people to know everything that i say, do or feel
but i'd have them understanding in at least a certain way
maybe its too much to ask


this headache is killing me